Music, despair and hope

I know I've been a little prolific today, but bear with me.  It's been a really tough one.

Those of you who know me and are reading this know what a big part music has played in my life. Those who have known me the longest know that it's been a part of me as long as I can remember.  I sing, and have sung in choirs and other groups.  I have played many instruments. And I always had a tape player, CD player, and/or radio going.  And I admit it, I had an 8-track when I was little.  I remember playing "Muskrat Love" on it.  My life had a soundtrack and music reflected my moods, my feelings, my station in life.  I would greet the day with music. There has always been music.

Until I became depressed.  And I could no longer listen to music.  It was a trigger and would send my brain places I didn't want to go.  My husband, I know, has been waiting for me to turn it on again.  But it won't come.  For whatever reason the things that have brought me the most joy in life - music, reading, are all denied to me now.  This is perhaps the cruelest thing.  

But today I wanted to hear one song.  It made me cry, but I played it loud.  If you've got it at home, play it.  It's much more powerful than seeing it on paper.  Divine inspiration or desperation?  Only time will tell.

There Will Come a Day

Faith Hill

It's not easy trying to understand

How the world can be so cruel

Stealing the souls of man

Cloudy skies rain down over all your dreams

You wrestle with the fear and doubts

Sometimes it's hard, but you gotta believe

(Chorus)

There's a better place

Where our Father waits

And every tear He'll wipe away

The darkness will be gone

The weak shall be strong

Hold on to your faith

There will come a day

Wars are raging

Lives are scattered

Innocence is lost

And hopes are shattered

The old are forgotten

The children are forsaken

In this world we're living in

Is there anything sacred

(Chorus)

The song will ring out

Down those golden streets

The voices of Earth and the angels will sing

(Hallelujah)

Every knee will bow

Sin will have no trace

In the glory of His amazing grace

There will come a day

There will come a day

Oh, there will come a day

There will come a day

I know there's coming a day, coming a day