Waiting

James Taylor wrote - the secret of life is enjoying the passage of time.  Not so much, says the bipolar girl.  It's a noble thought, but not one grounded in my reality.

No, for me, the secret is passing time quickly while waiting.  Waiting for what?  Well, waiting for the meds to work, waiting for this episode to pass, waiting until the pain seems farther away, waiting until this particular mood passes, waiting for a sedative to kick in.  Waiting for someone to come, waiting for someone to go.  Waiting until I can take more pills.  Waiting for the doctor to call.  Waiting until I have a clue.

Waiting.  Always waiting.  Feel like I'm never arriving.  Just always waiting.